Wendy's Path
~ to enlighten others that there is a world of healing beyond what most of modern civilization is willing to acknowledge and explore ~
INTRODUCTION
I'm Wendy Apple, and for over 20 years, I've been on a journey of healing - physically, mentally, and spiritually. I worked with many healers and saw incredible progress. However, it wasn't until I discovered NeuroGraphica® that I truly felt whole. Before, my mind, body, and spirit felt disconnected. From my very first drawing, I knew that NeuroGraphica® was the tool I had been searching for. Teaching and using it for healing became my passion. NeuroGraphica® marked the next step in my journey, and right from my first class, I felt a calling to share it with others.
MY HEALTH JOURNEY
Up to the age of 39, my life looked like the typical professional working mom in America. I was the Business Manager for a rapidly expanding Land Use Planning firm and married to my high school sweetheart, with two children at home, and all the demands that entails.
In 2001, my world fell apart when my 16-year-old son, Christopher, took his own life. The days that followed were filled with grief, and I sought solace in various forms of therapy including meditation, breathwork, group sessions, and individual and family counseling.
Christopher’s passing led me to reevaluate my beliefs in the interconnectedness of life. Where I once dismissed the notion of events carrying a higher purpose or lessons, I now saw the potential for growth. While I understood that no gift could replace my son, I also realized that if I didn't embrace the lessons life offered, his death would be an empty loss. Thus, I embarked on a painful journey to find meaning and value in the face of tragedy.
The initial change I noticed was a shift in how I perceived the fast-paced nature of modern life. Before my son's passing, I was often bustling and mentally active. However, after Christopher's death, I found myself needing to move more deliberately and gently. It felt like my body and mind could only operate at the pace set by my spirit.
This adjustment allowed me to view the world with greater clarity and expanded my awareness of my surroundings. I became more present in my own life and in the lives of those around me.
As a part of my healing process, I reexamined my priorities, and in 2003 decided to leave my demanding job and open my own business. This new business, Going Quilting, a fabric and notions store aimed at quilters, had long been a dream – and another lesson I had gathered was that I needed to follow my dreams.
Although I expected this new business to be at least as demanding as my previous job, I also saw it as an opportunity to be close to the simple beauty of quilting. The atmosphere I created within the shop, filled with peace, beauty, and creativity, reflected who I was becoming internally.
While Going Quilting was running, I was in my element. I was doing work I loved, in a place I had created. But unfortunately, in late 2006, Going Quilting failed, and that dream came to an end. I was emotionally and physically devastated – not just from the loss of the business, or even the echo of the loss of my son, but also from the realization that the store was not a cure sent by the Universe. I was left without solid footing.
With the closing of my store, my physical health began to reflect the emotional toll of the last several years. I entered a period of mourning: mourning for my son again, mourning for my store, and mourning for a life I couldn’t seem to manage. I could rarely predict how any day would unfold. I was exhausted, confused, unfocused, angry, and dysfunctional – even getting lost inside my neighborhood grocery store. Diagnosed with PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder), I began new rounds of treatment to address this problem.
As the years passed, I had multiple bouts of mysterious, debilitating illnesses. I was not consistently healthy enough to look for another job and began to focus on ways I could be less of a burden to my husband. Some days I could run errands, other days I couldn’t get out of bed – it was unpredictable. This poor health continued through the next six years. I wasn’t strong, but I was generally managing to care for myself and could make some contributions to family life.
This fragile state continued until 2012 when, following dental surgery, I had a profound physical setback making it difficult for me to walk, speak, or even feed myself. Some doctors refused to acknowledge my illness because they could not find a cause, leaving me searching for treatment elsewhere. I finally found an MD who specialized in Lyme Disease and could not only explain the connection between my dental surgery and my sudden severe symptoms, but also diagnosed me with acute, chronic, neurological Lyme Disease and associated co-infections, including Babesiosis, Bartonella, Mycoplasma, and Epstein-Barr.
This doctor began an intense 18-month treatment that included high-dose antibiotics, intravenous antibiotics, and herbal remedies. By the end of this treatment, I was even worse off than before I started. I was now confined to a wheelchair, having seizures, losing control of my bladder, frequently unable to speak, increasingly weak, severely limited in my ability to process thought, and often unable to feed myself. I had no way of knowing if my symptoms were worse due to the progression of the various diseases, or if the treatment had made me even more unwell.
Once this doctor had tried everything she could think of to improve my health, we agreed that it was time for me to move beyond her care. I worked with many different types of alternative healers including intuitive healers, acupuncture, colonics, substantial diet alteration, art therapy, physical therapy, meditation, breath work, REM therapy, essential oils, psychotherapy, and other things I’ve managed to forget. Most treatments made no difference in my overall condition. Some days I was worse, some days better.
As I look back, I see that my healers and I were primarily focused on my physical body, often overlooking my energy body. It was only later that I came to realize the true source of my illness was rooted deep within my energy body. Mainstream medicine tends to address symptoms rather than underlying causes, which makes it difficult to find a comprehensive solution. At that stage, I had no knowledge of energy medicine or the energy body.
ACCEPTING MY LIMITATIONS WITH NO HOPE OF CURE
Attempting to remain optimistic, I woke up every morning and looked for improvement. Every day I was determined to try something new or repeat something old to find the elusive cure to my diseases. But nothing made a difference. Days drifted into weeks, into months, and finally into years. As my health continued to be a financial, emotional, and physical drain on my family, I came to terms with my illness. I accepted that I would no longer be employable and would be dependent for the rest of my life. I emotionally and physically accepted as fact that I could not be cured and would never get substantially healthier. I took what seemed the most sensible course: I gave up trying to get better.
This was a huge shift in my attitude, and one that kept me from waking up disappointed every day. I decided to stop fighting and move forward with accommodating my reality. No more searching for elusive cures. Over time, my husband and I purchased a stair lift, a walker, and a mobility scooter to accommodate my physical reality. I had the port in my chest removed to discontinue all intravenous treatments. I wore a diaper. We gave up any kind of travel. I began to settle into this new life, accepting that my circuitous health journey was reaching an end.
MIRACLE #1: BLUE MIST ENERGY HEALING
By 2016, I was well settled into this constrained life. And then an actual miracle occurred. At my daughter’s urging, I reached out to Wendy Schoeppner, founder of Blue Mist Energy Healing. Wendy and I had met several years before this time, at a Lyme Disease support group meeting, where she was presenting her vision of how to treat Lyme Disease and its common co-infections. Energy Healing was a foreign concept to me, seeming entirely too far out of the mainstream to be real.
I called Wendy, and to my surprise, she had been anticipating my call. And so, once more, I allowed a bit of optimism to creep into my psyche. Through this groundbreaking Energy Healing approach, my physical health quickly began to return. Within just two sessions over the course of two weeks, I could walk again. Shortly after that I could talk and feed myself. Within weeks I regained control of my bodily functions and became increasingly able to think clearly. My physical limitations had been lifted. It truly was a miracle!
The experience of working with Wendy and learning about the unseen world of energy that surrounded, impacted, informed, and created my physical life, took about 18 months. This piece of my journey wasn’t easy or simple. I would get better and then worse again. At times the treatment, while entirely hands-off, was painful and provoked a great deal of emotional instability. Minute to minute my emotional state would move from giddiness to rage to desolation. Unbelievably, some days I craved the certainty of my previous diseased state.
This journey took me to places I preferred not to revisit. It opened old wounds - wounds that were never actually healed but that I had learned to work around. I had to acknowledge my own involvement in remaining ill, review my unresolved traumas from childhood, and reevaluate my own purpose in this life. Energy Medicine enabled me to do all this in a supported and guided environment.
It was a difficult process to retrain my physical body to understand that it was free from disease. As I became physically more capable for longer periods, I learned the hard truth – Wendy could do everything to remove my disease and cure me, but the internal work, to teach myself how to live as if I accepted this new reality, would be a longer, more complicated journey.
Despite the incredible recovery of my physical and mental health, I still felt confined, with no clear physical explanation. My thoughts kept circling back to the time I had resigned myself to a life of dependency, convinced I would never recover. It seemed my subconscious had settled on the identity of an unwell person, and even though my body was healing, this belief persisted.
I was baffled. I thought I knew all along that I wanted to be healthy, to be whole. But I learned the truth was much more complicated than that. I experienced this reality: being physically whole, believing I wanted to be healthy, and yet finding myself stuck or with recurring symptoms. I was unable to move forward into a life I believed I had been craving. I could walk and talk and was physically capable, and yet I was somehow blocked from living a full life.
~ Any time I find medicine that's helpful, I share it with everyone I know. ~
Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes
MIRACLE #2: HBLU
Fortunately, my story did not end there. Now that I was open to possibilities of healing and living beyond what conventional medicine teaches, I was open to other groundbreaking techniques.
While Blue Mist Energy Healing had cleared all the disease from both my physical and energy body, I realized I needed a different kind of assistance to locate and clear the trauma-related blocks that were now keeping me in a dysfunctional state.
In May of 2021, I added HBLU (Healing from the Body Level Up) as an adjunct to my healing to better target the remaining issues within my energy body. Working with Olivia Litwiller, an HBLU practitioner, and using this systematic approach, we were able to clear all the additional negative energy patterns that were holding me back. Energy patterns from traumas I remembered, as well as links to past life and generational traumas of which I had no conscious knowledge.
As my energy body was freed of these patterns, I became both physically and mentally stronger. It was a fascinating sensation, to let go of a trauma I had no conscious awareness of, and to feel physically stronger and lighter as a result.
~ You have the power to heal your life, and you need to know that. We think so often that we are helpless, but we're not. We always have the power of our minds...claim and consciously use your power. ~
Louise L. Hay
And yet, despite this new freedom from much of my past trauma, I remained stuck. There was something inside me preventing me from fully embracing the joy of a healthy and vibrant life. I knew intellectually that I was healed. I knew in my psyche that I had cleared my limitations. But somehow, I was still spending most of my time unable to move forward.
In the modern world, we are often told at this point in our healing: It’s all in your head. This means that there are no treatments for what ails you because you are “making it up” or “creating your illness”. It's a blame placed on the patient, and a surrender to the notion that true wellness is out of reach.
MIRACLE #3: NEUROGRAPHICA®
Throughout these many years of incapacitating illness, I found some relief and release in the process of creating. Depending on my physical capabilities at any given moment, I pursued baking, coloring, painting, and other crafts. I was clear that the act of creating made me feel more capable, freer, and more productive and I had a strong sense that it was important to follow this instinct as the one area where I was strong and vital; that it might be a key forward in my healing.
In August 2021, I stumbled on NeuroGraphica®. As I was scrolling through online art posts looking for ideas and inspiration, I saw someone’s Neuro Art piece. I wasn’t sure what it was, but I knew my body was sending me a “pay attention” message. My eyes began to buzz and tingle. I took the nudge and researched Neuro Art, which led me to NeuroGraphica®. I was fascinated but didn’t understand why. I wasn’t drawn to the beauty of the finished pieces, so I wasn’t sure why I was being called to pay attention.
It was only later, as I began to understand how NeuroGraphica® brings together the wisdom of the unconscious mind and the power of the conscious, that I understood that my subconscious was drawn to NeuroGraphica®. Through NeuroGraphica® I discovered that just as my subconscious had previously worked to keep me unhealthy – now that my subconscious was free of old baggage and patterns, I could create a state where my subconscious could work for me.
And with NeuroGraphica® I began the next stage of my healing. I enrolled in my first class in August 2021 and have not stopped taking classes since that time. I’ve learned, studied, shared, and taught with everyone willing to listen.
I enrolled in the second-ever English-speaking Instructor’s Course in April 2022. I formed a “think tank” for NeuroGraphica® – a group of like-minded students who are discussing the more significant implications of healing through NeuroGraphica®. I am fascinated by this simple, yet incredibly powerful, healing tool. With paper and a marker, a person can access the deepest recesses of their unconscious wisdom – wisdom collected over many lifetimes by their own souls and by the souls of families and groups of which they are a part.
In working with NeuroGraphica®, with beginners and as a beginner, I would often say or hear others say: I feel better, but I’m not sure why. Through my studies, I learned that in modern society we are taught to shut down the messages sent to us through our five senses. Through NeuroGraphica® I relearned how to hear the important information my body was sharing with me.
Summary
My study and use of NeuroGraphica® have changed my life! I was physically healed by Blue Mist Energy Healing; I was emotionally freed by HBLU therapy; and with NeuroGraphica® my soul has been ignited to fulfill its purpose. I am joyful. I feel free. I embrace the life and gifts I have been given with a full heart. I am grateful for the struggles and heartbreak that brought me to this point. And I am profoundly grateful to NeuroGraphica® for taking me forward to this full realization of life.
Through my 61 years of living, healthy and unhealthy, traumatized and free, I have learned that the journey of living is frequently a struggle. I am often surprised to hear myself say, “I’m having a good life.” Yet here I am, having a good life.
In 2016, I thought my life was at its close. I believed I would be dependent on my family for my few remaining years. And today I’m on top of the world! I’m no longer dependent! I've regained my independence. I'm actively contributing to society and assisting others in their healing journeys. My aim is to lead through action and guide those who may not yet see a way to a fulfilling life.
I am now beginning a new business, Wending Path. I choose this name as a play on my name, as well as a nod to my circuitous journey to full health.
I believe that when we open our minds and allow ourselves to experience all the Universe has to offer, we also open ourselves to the profound sensations and lessons that we came to this world to learn and experience. When we ask for help, we see that help is all around us. It is rarely in the form that we imagined, yet help is always present.
I am grateful to NeuroGraphica® for presenting itself to me, at the exact right time that it would serve my growth the best. It has helped me to heal, helped me to see my own gifts, and given me a renewed life purpose.
It is now my honor and responsibility to pay this gift forward. To help enlighten others that there is a world of healing beyond what most of modern civilization is willing to acknowledge and explore. I look forward to the challenge.
